Monday, April 9, 2012

One year and all that


Last week I took a Saturday wander to the mountain town of Asolo.  It was a lovely warm sunny spring day and my thoughts turned back to my last visit this way which was in my first few weeks here when I seemed to spend every weekend in this part of the Veneto.  Thinking back to those first few weeks it hit me – I’ve been here a year – what do I do now?

I can hardly believe it but this blog is now a whole one year old.  I started this as a way of letting dear ones keep up to date with the events of Raji world and ease my guilt about sending what I always feel is a self indulgent email detailing adventures – yes I understand the notion of a blog is self indulgent but you dear reader do have the choice of venturing to the rajisphere or not.  I never gave a thought to complete strangers finding my adventures worth reading but to my great surprise I have a bit of a following so I would like to take this opportunity to extend a welcome to my German, Russian, Ukrainian and American readers – it’s good to have you aboard.  To celebrate the one year this blog has a whole new look and a new subtitle – I figure I can no longer call it adventures of a year in the Veneto. 

As with these kinds of anniversaries one has a tendency to look back over the year and assess just what the hell it’s been like.  Looking back from the position of now being quite established here I would be lying if I said it hasn’t been hard.  Travelling through countries alone has never been a problem for me but living in a place without a support network was harder than I had imagined.  Many things were surprisingly easy and fell into place quite fast – finding work and a place to live etc (although sufficient credit needs to be given to forward planning.)  Staying in one place has been a strange adjustment, prior to this Italian year I hadn’t managed to stay in one spot for more than five months, looking back my life over the past few years has been very chaotic so having a base has been refreshing even if at times I have craved an adventure.  Small town life has also been a bit of an adjustment.  

Trevisans have proved a hard nut to crack being used to the casual inclusiveness of Australians having to negotiate a more reserved population has been difficult.  Many of my expat friends are here due to relationships and these connections have helped them find their social way.  Italian society is so family focused that my living solo, without family or relationship has rendered me a bit of an exotic creature, at times I have felt more like a visiting alien than an expat.  It is only recently that I have begun to feel a little more established here.  

As for life in a little town where nothing happens well that has proved quite pleasant, Treviso is such a pretty peaceful place that while the life is a million miles away from the world of gigs, exhibitions and festivals of Melbourne I haven’t felt the boredom that I had expected.  Ok this is in part due to long working hours – when you finish work at 9.30 at night all you have time and energy to do is go home, eat and fall asleep while reading.  Of course having Venice so near has kept me occupied.  Whenever I get an attack of the lonelies or find myself needing some thinking time I always head to Venice for a bit of a soul revival.  Even after a year I still feel excitement whenever I step out of the train station to see the city in front of me – I had expected to become inured to its beauty but it still takes my breath away and perhaps always will.      

I’ve learnt many things about myself this year – one that I can cook!  This probably sounds stupid but before necessity demanded that I get down to some serious ethnic cooking I used to describe myself as burning water!  Two that I enjoy my own company, I’ve lived alone for a full year now and still enjoy it – pottering around by myself, knowing that any mess is my mess, playing music that I like it’s all been fun, yes there I times you wish there was someone to talk to but on the whole solo living has much to recommend it.  Three; I’ve learnt that I really, really need a home, a sense of family and some stability – this has been yearning that has been growing for some time now and as much thought as I’ve given problem I still have no idea of where my home is – should I go back to Aus, can I make it in Italy or try somewhere new?  I had hoped that the truth would reveal itself over the time but I’m as confused as ever and now very tired of the problem – if anyone can help me out on this one I’d love to know!

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